Flying High

It is the brother-in-laws birthday today ... After work I came home and babysat the kids while they go out to see a movie and have a steak dinner. Still in the basement ... going to see if I can get on disability I have to get out of this rut ... and my god that chocolate chip cookie I just finished was so good!! ... anyway this rut  I am fucking up my life ... who's going to want to be my boyfriend? I am a Looooser!!! I want to cry This is how crack whore start out isn't it?? ... I DON'T WANNA BE A CRACK WHORE!!